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Comparisons & Inadequacy
By Minna EarthWalker
Hello Everybody. Well, I've just
come in from the back porch after having had a talk with Spirit.
What I needed to talk about was comparisons and resulting inadequacy.
I've been comparing
myself with all the lovely people here and in my comparison
have come up short. This is no
surprise to me, because that's what I do.
If any of you have noticed this and been a bit troubled or irritated
by it, so have I. We're in
company together. It's come to my attention that this has been
a lifelong burden / camouflage:
The Magical Cloak of Inadequacy.
For me to have worn this cloak so long means it must have been
of some benefit to me to wrap
myself in my own assumed inadequacy, which unfortunately resulted
in some good deal of
insecurity. I had gotten used to the insecurity, having told
a friend that, "No, as I've aged I
haven't gotten rid of my insecurities, just gotten used to them,
so I don't pay them as much mind
as I used to. They pop up, I recognize them ~ say, 'oh, it's
you, again. Hello, don't bother me
now'. And then we go on."
It is interesting to me in my mind that inadequacy and insecurity
represent different concepts.
Inadequacy is a presumed condition of being less than, which
leads to the feelings of insecurity.
I can see how the inadequate label has helped me in the past.
I have always felt stupid. I did
realize that I'm not stupid, necessarily, it's just that my
intelligence and the way I gather it is
different from what the mainstream considers intelligence, and
the way the mainstream gathers
intelligence. I think differently and learn differently. So,
I've often felt stupid.
Sitting on the porch I realized that what I value as intelligence
was not the same as what was
valued by my parents as intelligence. My dear father actually
said once that perhaps I did have
some minimal brain damage. I have remembered this and smiled,
but it did hurt. The intelligence
that I was interested in pursuing was not honored in our family.
It wasn't necessarily dishonored,
it just wasn't relevant. My parents grew up in the Depression
times, so what was important was
steadiness and practicality. Was what you learned going to earn
you food and shelter.
Well, except perhaps for literature, I wasn't interested in
learning the things that would bring you
food and shelter. Oddly enough, I did wind up spending 26 years
working with analysis, but
analysis, thinking about how things fit together, is an important
skill to me, so that part of world
intelligence was something I cared to learn.
So growing up, it really wasn't in my best interest to pursue
whatever the heck it is that rings my
intelligence bell. Therefore, due to my lack of interest in
bread and butter-bringers and my
interest in mystery, I became inadequate, and perhaps stupid.
This inadequacy served me in a backwards way in my career, driving
me to always try and work
and think hard to commit myself to my work. Especially since
the work I was associated with
was providing support for children from separated families it
was important to overcome my
inadequacies for this work. The 'cloak of inadequacy' drove
me to do more than I thought I knew
how. I committed my heart and spirit to helping these children,
their caretaker parents and the
direct service delivery people who made things happen for them.
It also made me a really unassuming, unthreatening presence
in the midst of a really political
environment. So appearing absolutely un-dangerous, because I
was so very humble, because I
was so very inadequate, I could get a lot more done in many
ad hoc situations than perhaps a
more high-powered type might be able to accomplish. That was
my presumed thinking, anyway.
I also always liked to go into the new parts of the program
which weren't yet structured to do my
work. This sense of inadequacy drove me to work hard in these
areas and establish a system. I
don't know if this makes sense to anyone, but in my mind these
were some of the reasons that the
'cloak of inadequacy' was a good mantle to continue to wear.
It also kept me low on the radar.
Both in childhood and in adulthood it was really, really, important
to stay under the radar.
So, now I'm retired and who am I going to be inadequate of now.
Well, I'm having more time to
think about my spiritual life now.
I have always had a spiritual life, wandering here and there.
My favorite pursuit is finding the
'sparkles of gold' in the various faiths that point to the One,
to All-That-Is. I seem to be
intrinsically incapable of steadily following one particular
path. There are oceans and great
rivers. I'm a meander. Like a packrat, or a magpie, I go and
find sparkly bits and pieces here and
there and bring them back to my own little nest, to peruse and
enjoy. I really have no idea what
my nest will wind up looking like. I just enjoy bringing back
the sparkly bits.
So, every once in a while, I think, I really ought to commit
to one path and pursue it. Everybody
else does. It seems to be the right way to go. I really ought
to. So, I get on this path looking for
sparkly bits, trying to commit to the really appropriate way
to follow Spirit. Then I begin
comparing myself and noticing my inadequacies.
I can't or don't do what this one does. Oops that one either.
Oh. There must be something really, really, wrong with me.
(I don't admit to myself that I'm not just comparing: I'm jealous
of people who know how to be
the way that I think that I ought to be.) Oh, Dear. Then I see
this jealousy, and am so ashamed of
myself. So I'm in a double bind. Maybe triple. I'm inadequate,
not talented, and a sh*t for feeling
Once I was in a hypnotherapy learning group, and I was so afraid
that these 'natural spiritualgranola
people' there would see through to my inadequacy and lack of
worth. Well, God Bless
them, they just ran that stuff over and we all did the work.
It was no longer an issue there.
I've been doing the same thing here. Thank goodness. It's become
more burden than I am willing
to carry. It interferes with my spirit, with my sharing, with
my growth whatever the heck that is.
It's unkind to me and no longer useful. And it's deeply unkind
to each of you. I didn't mean to be
unkind. It's just a function of the cloak.
So I went out on the back porch to talk to Spirit about it.
Of course, I was outside, so I couldn't
just begin to sit and talk to Spirit. Things needed doing: deadheading
Oh. I came back finally to sit down and talk and thought, "Boy.
I can't even just settle in to talk
with Spirit ~ ow. I am soooo inadequate." Then it occurred
to me that walking around, doing
little things in the yard is a meditation for me. My brain stops
running, and all I see is a bloom to
remove, nothing else. No self-talk. I had to clear my mind before
I could sit and talk with Spirit.
Well. That's good.
So, I asked Spirit to help me remove this faithful old 'cloak
of inadequacy'. It is no longer useful
to me, and has become a burden and an inhibitor. I asked that
it be removed, taken away, burnt
and its ashes scattered where they need to be. I asked for healing
for the 'snaps' on my shoulders
where the cloak used to attach.
I would also ask that if you notice my slipping on the cloak
that you very gently tap me on the
shoulder and remind me that it's too warm to be wearing a heavy
cloak and that i don't need it
any more. Perhaps maybe offer up a prayer of support too. That
would be good. Until those
'shoulder snaps' are healed i may want to be attaching a cloak
Oh. I almost forgot. Inadequacy is also a really good reason
to not achieve anything. Duh.
However, I don't know what i want to achieve really. I can be
jealous of others' prowess, but
really, I think my favorite thing is just gathering sparkly
bits and rejoicing in their glitter.
I've tried to post this several times and gotten an error. I'm
going to try again. Perhaps I need to
let you know, I don't think I need reassurance. I just want
to let you know what's happening with
me and to 'think it out' myself.
Minna, I know you aren't looking for reassurance. I just want
to tell you what my impressions of
you have been. I see a heck of a lot of stamina, a lot of strength
and a very compassionate
person. Your pace may not always be full tilt, but that is because
you know how to rest when you
need to and sprint when you need to. That's the kind of feeling
I get. It was a bit of a shock to me
to read about the inadequacy issue you've been battling, as
'inadequate' is one of the last words
I'd have used to describe you.
I have confidence you can slip off this robe. You have what
it takes inside you. Many people have
been helped and healed by you being in their lives. If this
robe tries to come back, remember all
of those people and how you've helped them.
Does it help you find comfort and strength in the knowledge
that I often feel inadequate too?
That it's getting better now, but I still notice the "little
me" voice, the one that tries to minimize
my feelings, my inner voice, my intuitions; the one that tries
to adapt to the structure of
"mainstream" life, the one that is used to hearing
that I am selfish, that I have too big an ego, that
I ramble, that I'm a drama queen, overly sensitive, exaggerating
all the time... It is only in the last
year Minna, that I've started learning to speak up, to stop
whispering to only a few, to start
trusting that I'm more than just adequate. It's a big battle
to start understanding that those voices
are echoes from the past, from the shadows of our youth, our
deep desire to be loved and to love
freely, abundantly and with abandon.
Minna, for what it's worth, I love you and have a deep respect
and admiration for you. You've
shown me so much beauty, so much generosity, authenticity and
love since we met last autumn.
There is no single way in which we are to know things or do
things... your gentle support brings
great comfort. Your loving voice brings peace, acceptance, trust.
Those gifts, Minna, are gifts
that make you beautiful beyond imagination.
Minna, I am not going to say too much - but I ask myself why
do I want to mention "carrying the
cloak for others?". We come to this life to serve Spirit
and we all have different ways of doing
that. Some journey, some teach, some heal, some serve in more
mundane ways etc., etc. and
some keep the whole place stable to allow others to play their
part - but we each have a purpose
- something we agreed to do for Spirit before we came to this
place: in the same way that each
plant you tend each leaf that catches the breeze has a purpose:
do you think one flower worries
that it is not as big as the next, not as colorful, not as pretty?
No. It is just joyful to be able to
serve the rest of All-That-Is. Maybe this is what the "green"
you have talked about elsewhere is
trying to teach you?
In the mundane I work on a freelance/self-employed basis and
I go into lots of different
companies. It's very interesting to watch how different companies
do the same things: how the
people in these companies who have the same job can have widely
different approaches. After 8
years of working this way I can usually predict from the first
meeting with the Directors how the
business will be doing. One thing I have seen is that those
bosses who think they are the beesknees,
are quick to tell you how great they are, are often the bosses
who have an unhappy
workforce and whose business is failing or at least not reaching
it's potential. In companies
where the bosses realize that their part is to serve the rest
of the business not to issue commands,
the people are the happiest and the business is on the up or
at least reaching it's potential.
So which are you - the boss who serves and inspires or the boss
who tells you how great they are
who everybody ignores? Has your business failed or has it borne
One more thing: If you are now feeling that this service is
no longer your path, perhaps you have
earned a reward for the service you have given? Maybe the "green"
has been patiently waiting
for a time when the years of service was done? Maybe Spirit
brought you to your current home
to be able to bring you to that message when the time was right?
Well, my goodness. Here I tell you I have been unkind to you
by comparing myself with your
gifts and experiencing occasional jealousy, and there you go
showering me with kindness and
support. For Heaven's sakes. Bless you.
Glam. Thank you. I will drop that robe, and i won't make myself
another one. In its own
backwards way, it did serve, but its usefulness is over.
Thank you some more. Thank you for your confidence. Yes, I believe
I am strong and I do a
little spiritual healing from time to time and over my lifetime
that has been my wish. I have been
told it can make others feel really competent and fast to see
the, let's kindly call it the evenness
of my pace (This doesn't make me feel inadequate, it just makes
me laugh). To heal, to assist, to
offer perspective and support, and to provide a little place
to rest and receive nourishment for
As i was sitting on my porch and talking to Spirit, i reminded
'her' that this time (whatever it is) I
had requested a 'small life'. I don't know that I had a big
life or what last time, but I am quite
clear that this time my wish and desire is to have a small life.
I told Spirit, perhaps I had wished
to help me along with this small life with my cloak, but that
I didn't need it any more (the
cloak~I'll keep the small life).
Mouse. I trust your intuition, your insights and your great
heart. I honor who I have seen you to
be and I love you dearly. I honor you for living your life in
harmony with your beliefs ~ for
walking your talk. Your thoughts ~ even when 'speaking out'
are considered, thorough and
truthful in a way that serves Spirit. Thank you for your kindness
and your Dear Heart.
Wolfie. How interesting. Yes, I would gladly 'carry the cloak
for others'. And I remember that
each little flower that I see bloom, I am so excited and rejoice
in its beauty. I love the
individuality of each flower and each is lovely in its own little
shape and color. (Although I'm
really glad Venus Fly Traps don't grow out here ~ but then again,
if they eat mosquitos...).
I don't know about a 'reward'. People used to tell me they were
glad I was happy because I
'deserved' it. I told them I didn't want to deserve it. I'd
rather ascribe it to grace. If I 'deserved'
something, I might could do something to 'un-deserve' it. So
by calling it Grace ~ hey ~ it's just a
freebie for Love.
But I am happy to be in and to serve my beloved Green. It teaches
me and blesses me.
And, for me such clarity when you said: So which are you
- the boss who serves I wasn't a
boss for too long ~ too much of a hermit. And when really petty
squabbles would break out, I'd
sometimes ask folks to please lock their personality in their
desk drawers and just do their work.
However, my career was about service. Service for the children,
the parents, and for those who
struggled to help these people. I was there for the children,
but I also deeply loved and wanted to
support all the people who in so many different ways worked
toward the goal of trying to make
these lives better. Yes, my time there was about service, both
professional and spiritual. Thank
Minna, I was trying to say was that how we treat towards others
effects how they respond to
whether it is a boss or the janitor
of the times when you were able to make a
difference when someone more aggressive would not have been
able to help: your service to
Spirit. No too paths are the same, but each are as valid is
what I was trying to say...
I don't know about a 'reward'. People used to tell me
they were glad I was happy because I
'deserved' it. I told them I didn't want to deserve it. I'd
rather ascribe it to grace. If I 'deserved'
something, I might could do something to 'un-deserve' it. So
by calling it Grace ~ hey ~ it's just a
freebie for Love.
Wise words Minna!
Ya know... a while ago, I was told that the new "masters"
and teachers wouldn't be set aside in
monasteries, in temples, in ashrams... they wouldn't be exclusive
and untouchable... they would
be dressed in jeans and walk among us, live between us, and
with us. They would teach by
example, with a humble approach, and without the hierarchical
power ascribed to leaders of
today's mainstream world. These people would be people with
whom we can identify, in whom
we see our own lives mirrored, connected, touched. These people
lower the threshold, take away
the ego-aspect and change our perceptions of love, of power,
of life. Please do not compare
yourself to perceived hierarchy. You've always thought differently,
because you *are* different.
You're a light-bearer for us young'uns, you're not afraid of
the changes that are happening, you're
supportive and offering shelter; both physical and spiritual/emotional.
Your intentions are pure,
I used to believe that a true spiritual person doesn't smoke,
doesn't drink, doesn't this and that. I
used to measure my level of spirituality to these things. *giggle*
I still smile when people find
out that I smoke, even though I'm "into spirituality".
Or that I enjoy a glass of wine, or drink
coffee *gasp*. That I don't eat organic only, meditate twice
daily, and more of that stuff. My
spirituality is measured by my Love for Life, my integrity in
action, my surrender to Spirit.
You are a very spiritual person in my book Minna. Your expression
of it is just as unique to your
personality as you are unique to Spirit. ((((((((hugs)))))))))
and a lot of Love.
An honest accounting Minna in all you expressed. It's a good
step, and not one that all will make
it to; transparency with self. Small life, maybe. Big heart.
Minna, Though I've only known you a short while, I have seen
an intelligent woman who isn't
afraid to admit that she feels insecure and inadequate at times.
That takes courage and the fact
that you take joy in each flower makes you all the more special.
You're unique and I am honored
to know you. ((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))
You know, I used to model locally when I was in high school,
was told I was "beautiful", etc....
but my mother was very good at emotionally and verbally abusing
me as I was growing up. That
carried over into my first marriage where my ex-husband treated
me like a "trophy/ maid" to
show off to his work mates. He works in the medical field and
during those dinners and gettogethers,
as soon as his co-workers learned that I worked in the veterinary
field, I ceased to be
seen as "intelligent" to them. My ex treated me the
same way and he cheated on me and lied to
me a lot arrogantly believing that I'd never learn of his misdeeds..
I put up with this for 12 years
before I said, "No more".
It has taken me a long time to realize that I am not inadequate,
but rather to accept myself as I am
and to serve Spirit and others. I'm much happier now and I still
have bouts of inadequacy from
time to time, but it makes me realize that I am only human.
I do my best and that's okay.
Remember, Minna, life is what you make of it. Make the most
of it in any way that you can.
Minna and I were talking about this some and I'd mentioned I
was going to do an article about
comparisons and inadequacy as she'd brought the need to my attention.
Since Spirit has moved
her to address the issue from a personal perspective, a form
of releasing those very
inadequacies, (((Hugs you Minna))), I'll comment here and link
this whole thread to the Library.
It's a common issue for all of us at different times. That said,
this is for you, Minna, but also for
the community as it pertains to all of us.
Comparing ourselves to others is a way of judging progress,
abilities, and allowing us to see
what we perceive to be our strengths and weaknesses. However,
it can become a trap and it can
begin to make us feel very inadequate when we don't meet up
to the standards they may hold.
Those standards need to be met by them not us. Our truths and
comparisons are judged in the
end by us when we stand before Spirit where no deceptions can
exist. Our truths and
comparisons are judged when we stand in the mirror and face
our own reflection in open honesty.
Certainly there are norms we all strive to relate to but the
truth is we are each born with gifts
and abilities unique (though commonly found in others); unique
in that they are suited to us, our
nature and our way of walking through the world. Comparisons
then should be with the Self
where the truth resides. How we think others perceive us is
often a reflection of our fears making
us feel more inadequate. We didn't do it good enough, didn't
perform, can't perform we see the
negatives. I think Minna is exemplifying that here beautifully.
Look how she has expressed these
issues and the reaction others are showing her. They see someone
totally different, caring,
compassionate, strong, giving, one who does this from the heart.
They're not looking at what she
can't do, they're looking at what she does do.
Not everyone is going to be the shaman or witch or someone with
phenomenal abilities. Some of
us are meant to be humble spiritual beings just helping others
where and when we can, leading
the best life we can lead, and trying hard to not make mistakes
along the way, but even the best
of us make mistakes. It's how we learn what not to do.
Are we doing better than we were last year? Have we improved
and grown? Are we still
wrestling with the same problems? Are we stagnating because
of it? Are we allowing our
weaknesses to overcome our strengths and cause them to atrophy?
What is the reflection in the
mirror bringing to our attention? Is it positive or negative?
If negative why is that continuing?
Usually it's because we are afraid to make a change, afraid
of not pleasing others, of not
meeting those social or spiritual standards we place so high
Did you know that most people do not come to the fullness of
their spiritual blossoming until they
reach the age of about 52? This is the age when Native cultures
tend to recognize one as an
Elder, when a person has lived and experienced enough of life
to blossom in their wisdom and
share it with others to help guide them. It's a time in our
life where we come to see what really
matters and holds true value...that's when we begin to see the
need to walk our spiritual path and
explore what is within us. Spirit gives us those abilities on
some level and the seeking brings
It's an age when we are generally free of the responsibility
of raising a family, perhaps nearing
or entering retirement, and finding we have the time and space
to focus on our needs, our
spiritual growth, and do this more fully than in the past. It's
a time where we are free to remain
on a more dedicated path. Some will come to this before this
age, but they are the ones who have
been given a spiritual Calling and are to spend their lives
in the service of others teaching,
sharing, mentoring, and healing...add-ministering along spiritual
lines. *Soft smile* While not
everyone is meant to be a shaman, or spiritual leader, we're
all meant to explore our spirituality
in our own way. No one way being better or worse than another,
just right for us. Spirit never
brings us to things too soon, or too late, only when it's right.
Remember, the Inner Spirit is
immortal, the body is the Robe it wears. Become the witness
and you open yourself to so much
more beyond the mundane reality of the physical world.
Each of us is a part of the whole, unique, important, valuable,
and critical to the existence of that
very whole. There is no inadequacy simply because we cannot
do what others do, or do it as well
as they do, or in the same ways. We have our own gifts to share
and discover and develop. It
doesn't matter if it happens at 5 yrs. of age, or 55 years of
age, or as we're leaving this world for
the next, what matters is the awareness that we are achieving
and our love of Spirit, the desire to
serve, and our willingness to open our minds to the fact that
we are more than just physical
Inside each individual is a spirit that is just waiting to guide
us along, waiting to show us what
they can do, what there is inside us that is wanting to rise
to the surface. Our gifts and abilities
are all the same, sensory perceptions that allow us (on differing
levels depending which senses
are more dominant) to tap into the Powers That Be and unite
with them to enhance our life, and
the lives of those we touch.
Some will touch one person, but that touch will change a life
forever. Some will touch one at a
time, and over the course of their life they will touch many.
Some will touch multitudes. Does it
matter in which capacity we span our touch? No. One touch is
enough. If we can do more then
we continue to do it. We pass it on. But to please Spirit, if
we make one person's life better for
having lived our own it is enough. It's just that most of us
tend to be motivated to do more and
that's what urges us forward.
Where does the desire come from? Well through our suffering
and injustices that we experience
we come to know pain. Perhaps it's substance abuse in our youth,
or alcohol binges, or even
theft. It can be abuse as a child on mental, emotional, physical
and spiritual levels. Whatever the
source of our suffrage, it's there to teach us compassion for
others. This is why they say the
shaman/ess is the Wounded Healer because through our pain we
learn what causes pain, well
learn what it feels like to suffer. We learn to understand how
it feels. These are what I call
Shadow Lessons from Shadow Teachers that teach us what not to
be, do, or say to hurt others.
In that compassion we have come from a place of pain and sorrow.
We have learned what it
takes to rise above it, what it feels like to be the victim
and choose to survive. We learn how to
help someone else survive. Not everyone is going to plant an
herb garden and make potions or
simples or home remedies that heal the body. Not everyone has
interests in that area, but all of
us have the capacity to heal on some level: mental, physical,
emotional, or spiritual, and often in
combinations of these at one time or another. Do we have to
do it constantly, no, of course not.
Not everyone is called to a path of such service, but each of
us can do it as needed can't we? Is
that inadequate? No it serves the moment and the need. Is that
negligent? No it is responsive. Is
it irresponsible? No because the responsibility that that Spirit
asks us to take on is simply the
ability to respond to a given situation or issue the best we
This is why you will hear me addressing the 3 I's...Integrity
(respecting self and others and
striving for the higher good), Intent (right intentions for
the higher good), and Impeccability
(doing the best we are capable of doing is all spirit asks of
us...no one is perfect, humanity has
flaws...each and every one of us. Seeing that we learn tolerance
for the mistakes and careless
acts of others.)
These things, and other life experiences influence us and we
develop into the person we are right
now because of that. We are always in the process of "be-coming"
who we already are. Walking
a spiritual path means that we let the Inner Spirit shine it's
light, that we help others find their
own whatever form it takes, and that we continue to do so. No
more, no less, than simply
responding to life as it unfolds. It's in us, in you and me
and the next person walking down the
street. Are we inadequate because we couldn't cope? No we clearly
didn't have the skills at that
time, but we can seek them, learn them, and apply them for the
next time we find ourselves facing
Through seeing that we are complex beings that think, feel,
relate, and need strength to endure
we come to recognize (at some point) or experience our own spirituality.
We begin to seek Spirit
out, find out who this Creator is. In that we begin to study
and apply spiritual foundations and
principles. In doing so our gifts begin to reopen or emerge,
those things that we took for granted
as children reappear and we ask ourselves if we are losing it
or our conformity to the standards
of social acceptance. We keep these things secret for a time
and we struggle through trial and
error to find others who are "like us" to compare
ourselves to, to communicate with, to learn
from but we have to seek them. This is Spirit's Law....we must
ask to receive. We must knock on
those doors before they will open.
Often (these days) those Doors are to places like Spirit Lodge,
like the private emails exchanged
with those we seem to see a light shining from. We begin to
"connect". Then we start to compare
ourselves to the growth of those we meet in this strange new
community (be it here or elsewhere,
it doesn't matter) we start to compare and see how little we
know. This is human nature but we
need to change that to a spiritual nature and see we are a part
of the whole and worthy!
Well of course there's a mountain of knowledge we need to climb
and discover, of course it
seems huge and we feel very small. But every person (whatever
their position on that mountain)
had to start a climb up, sometimes on a path, sometimes changing
the path, sometimes barely
having a foothold, sometimes slipping and falling, but always
under Spirit's watchful eye with an
unseen hand extended or nudging someone to cross the path of
one who is struggling who must
ask for help.
It is the service we can offer (whatever capacity that takes
form in) and all it takes is a hand out
to help someone find just one answer, or one smile, or one piece
of comfort, or one word of
support, or one piece of enlightenment. It's the hand that offers
to share an exercise or
meditation or process that will allow us to see the light and
step into it just a bit. With each step
we take we understand, develop and grow until we can stand in
the Light of Spirit fully and say:
"I AM....A PART OF YOU! YOU ARE A PART OF ME."
Every person on that mountain has that ability to extend a hand
and help someone find their
footing. Then let go, let them walk their path as they see fit,
or perhaps share the path for a time
as friends, sometimes friends for a lifetime. Sometimes that
sharing or helping hand is to take
that person to the sage who sits in the cave on the mountain,
the person that holds the knowledge
this seeker needs, and to network in this way when we can't
offer up the exact answers.
Anyone who has ever walked a spiritual path has had to struggle
to find it, to make their way
along it, and ask for help. I was taught not to teach anyone
who does not ask, it cannot be fed to
those who are not hungry, and it's the inner spirit that must
hunger. The only comparison we
need to make is to see if we are walking our talk, walking in
the image of the person we want to
be, and if we are walking and touching lives for the greater
good. The only inadequacies that we
need to see are those things that hold our interest and ask
us to seek more, to find answers, to
develop and point us in the direction we need to grow.
The things that interest us spiritually speaking are the same
things we need to feed the Inner
Spirit's hunger and bring forth (in the process) an awareness
that we can do, we can achieve, we
do have, and we are evolving. No one is ever born that doesn't
have at least one gift to share
with the world. Some have more and there is no standard. But
one gift can be powerful, one gift
can outweigh the gift of those who have several. Think about
it. If you master one thing and are a
jack-of-all-trades in others, do you know a lot or a little?
Both have purpose, some are single
taskers and others are multitaskers, there is need for both.
Both will serve in their own way, but
both hold value. If you have one gift, one ability you may touch
multitudes with it. What's your
message to share? What's your burning desire you never followed?
What is it that your Inner
Spirit hungers for, dreams of, feels inspired to do that your
logical mind wants to argue and say:
Find those answers and take the n't out of it and
see that you can! Spirit did not seed you with
things you cannot accomplish, you were seeded with things you
will accomplish...if you find your
way to believing in yourself. Drop the inadequacies, drop the
insecurities, tell yourself each
morning..."All I have to do is try." It really is
all Spirit asks of you...and me...and the next person
walking down the street...just try. You'll find out when you
reach and drop the boundaries of old
outworn comfort zones that you can do much more than you ever
realized and as you see one
success you'll see others. Go for it!
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