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Stepping Out of
I'm new here, I know...
There is much yet for me to read
within the pages of the archives here, and I thank Divine-Mother-Father-Force
for guiding me to this place. They've mostly guided me here
via the various animal spirits that have come into my dreams
or into my favorite animal 'oracle' cards, or simply through
physical appearances in 3D reality (praying mantis and grasshopper
being the most recent--praying mantis was HAUNTING!!! ). I Googled
these appearances and three times, this forum came up in the
search...and being of Celtic extraction, 3 is a big number for
me. But as in my username, so is 7, a number of change and transformation.
Because I'm new here, and because
of previous negative experiences at another supposedly magickally/spiritually-minded
forum, I've felt the need to tread lightly.
I also feel the need to tread lightly
because I've been accused of talking too much, sharing too much.
I've been told that I'm like my dad: I dominate conversations.
I've ascertained that perhaps I've done it because of a desire
to feel heard and what I have to say has gone unheeded, as if
my opinions don't matter. Which is true: I HAVE felt that way.
But here, I'm stepping out of the
shadows a bit to lay bare what I wish others to know about my
particular walk on this Earth as a female:
Sometimes I feel desperate to understand
who I am, even though there have been recent occurrences letting
me know precisely Who I Really Am. Knowing intellectually and
KNOWING within the heart--indeed the entire BODY--is an entirely
I sometimes feel that desperation
because of my parents trying to tell me who I am, sheltering
me from this or that failure because I was born hypothyroid,
and because the doctors didn't know much about that condition
in infants back in 1978, I possibly had some "brain damage"
due to the lack of thyroxine in my body. My math scores in school
were not that great, but English, Spelling, Music, Reading and
Art? Off the charts!
So it begs the question: am I really
brain-damaged or did I simply arrive with gifts specially geared
to what I now know as my calling in Music, Spirituality and
related forms of creativity? It seems I'm intelligent enough...*shrugs*
I honestly don't know except what my intuition quietly has whispered
to me over the years, via certain feelings I get...certain kinds
of Knowing Shivers that course through me like fire...I won't
go into details here, as these feelings are specific to me and
I am unsure anyone would be able to relate at all.
But another thing about my soul's
current expression as female this lifetime has me scratching
Why am I so drawn to the Divine Masculine
polarity when it comes to learning deeper spiritual Truths,
when it is thought by some sectors of the spiritual community
overall that women should only
learn from women and men should only learn from men?
Don't get me wrong. I have discovered
fabulous teachers in the women I've met over the last few years.
But those are the ones that I KNOW Creator has led me to for
one reason or another.
I'm talking about gravitating naturally,
without feeling expressly "prompted" or "told"
by Spirit--except maybe from within (?) to certain members of
the Masculine polarity, whether they be authors, musicians,
scientists or whatnot. I am always excited to meet new male
friends, even when there's part of me that worries that I should
have "girlfriends," too.
So I have to ask myself, how exactly
do *I* connect to the Sacred Feminine, considering I'm drawn
like a butterfly to the Divine Masculine polarity so much?
These answers are slow in coming,
but they show up here and there.
That's about all I can write without
rambling too much.
Thank you for sharing yourself with
us. I think its normal to be a bit cautious and get a
feel for new groups, but I will share the Lodge is a good place
to be. J (Im biased but I think most here feel the same
way.) As for talking too much, well I have failed Brevity 101
so many times that I have a Masters Degree in failure
there. Im an old windbag that loves to share and lets
her mind flow out her mouth most of the time. I love spiritual
topics. Feel free to express yourself, there are others here
that like to share too so youll fit right in.
We all search to find ourselves and
in that come to find Self deep within us. Looking externally
is going to give us answers to externals, the internals are
found within us. *Soft smile* Spiritual foundations and exploration
help us get there. What holds us back while were young
and developing fuels our passion as adults to explore so we
lose nothing really, it just comes to us a little later in life.
I would venture youre not brain-damaged, your posts are
too intelligent for that, and it would seem (from what Ive
seen of you here) that youve answered your own question
arrive with gifts specially geared to your
calling in Music, Spirituality and related forms of creativity.
And we do relate very well to the intuitive and sensory
messages we all get. Youll find most of us operate on
that level here.
You asked why you were so drawn to
the Divine Masculine polarity I would venture thats because
you need to bring that side of yourself up and out more. We
all have a feminine and masculine side to us and part of the
journey is learning to balance the two. Some believe as youve
stated, that women should only learn from women and men should
only learn from men, and others believe just the opposite: women
should learn from men and men from women. I personally believe
its a mixture, we learn from those who cross our paths
and have something to share that were in need of. Does
it matter if they are male or female? Not in my book, we can
jiggle things into our way of perceiving as we expand on that
through what they share with us. So I think your natural gravitation
toward the masculine has more to do with balancing within your
Self. Be patient with the process, embrace both the Divine Feminine
and Divine Masculine and youll find your point of balance
with them both as they merge over time.
Im sure some others will have
their views to share too. Be at ease with the speed of replies
here, some come daily and others come a couple times a week.
some of us come, read the replies and realize we have nothing
particularly new to add, so we just read. Sharing, especially
on an open forum is always a risk. Cinnamon and her administrators
have created an amazing space and hold it well, but because
it is completely open, anyone can have access to what we share,
so I do not think your caution is unfounded, but in fact a good
I have nothing
to add to what Cinn wrote about your question, as I also believe
we find the teachers that we are ready to meet. I do believe
that the externals are not just externals, but also mirrors
into who we cannot see our self to be, yet. Mirrors to our shadow
self. So maybe there is some aspect of the masculine that you
are needing to see in the mirror, in the men you are drawn to
as teachers...or maybe there is some aspect of the feminine
in the men you need to see in the mirror. Creativity is such
a wonder filled place to explore the masculine and the feminine,
as they are so delight fully woven together in that form of
DruidKat7, you asked: "Why am I so drawn to the Divine
Masculine polarity when it comes to learning deeper spiritual
Truths, when it is thought by some sectors of the spiritual
community overall that women should only learn from women and
men should only learn from men?" I can't say for certain
- I'll leave that up to you.
share that when I came here, I was deeply drawn to the Divine
Feminine. My quest to understand and experience consumed me.
I am a woman, and the reason for me was that I knew well the
Divine Masculine. It all had to do with the way I was raised,
the priorities and characteristics imbued to me as a child,
teen and that I carried within myself and treated as my own.
It is represented in my profession (although now I bring in
a lot of feminine energy and I have fun sprinkling or dousing
it, depending on the situation). I was unbalanced really, and
I needed to absorb and experience what this so-called feminine
energy was. I see all this now, in hindsight, of course. It
was a wonderful thing to have happen even though it was a lot
you'll find peace and safety here as you continue in your search
for answers. Everything your needing, every question that needs
answering has already been given and provided. The mist that
cloaks them all will lift revealing one at a time or several
when your truly ready, ready to wisely use the gifted answers.
Stay of good courage.
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