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Couple Dreams For The New Year
By
WhiteBuffaloWoman
The other night, I dreamed
that I was at a class reunion. We were at a big field,
like a jousting field or a rodeo arena, big dirt field
with stands on the two long sides. I looked across the
field and saw the other "Sonja", a girl that
had been in my kindergarten class and throughout grade
school and high school in many of my classes. (This
was a lesson for me, that I was not so unique, that
there were others out there like me.) I mentioned to
someone that I thought she had died from breast cancer,
and they told me she had not. I was happy that she had
not died and sent a big smile and wave across the field.
I then went to the food line and selected only meats
to fill my plate, all different types of meat. I knew
that this would make me sick if I ate the different
meats together. But I didn't want to be rude, so I took
the meat from each of the different servers. As I was
seating back down at my table, people pointed out that
I took too much and I would never be able to eat that
much. The feeling I got was anger coming at me, and
disgust, as I felt I was perceived as being a glutton.
The feeling throughout the dream was about perception,
the people there wanted to be perceived as successful
and that they wanted approval from their classmates.
A little later in the dream, I was across the field
with my husband. He had been playing with people, pretending
to be someone they knew and they didn't remember. He
and I got into a limo with all the windows blocked.
At some point I felt like this was a coffin, but then
it started to move. I was afraid when it was moving,
afraid that we would crash, afraid that we would run
into something and damage the car, then there would
be consequences to pay. I realized that it wasn't until
my thoughts crystalized my fears that we hit things
as we were moving.
Last night, I dreamed that
I was on an industry group meeting. It was a combination
of the real type of activities and a treasure hunt.
I was part of the team that solved the treasure hunt,
but the rules were that not everyone on the team could
share in the reward, just the first seven that showed
up. I didn't like this at all. It seemed unjust, that
we would break up the team to get the reward. During
the reward ceremony, the rules changed again, some team
members were more worthy than others and got a bigger
share of the reward. I got a smaller share because I
had brought a problem to the meeting and we had not
solved the problem. All in all, I felt like these dreams
were messages to ponder for the new year. For taking
too much on my plate, I take on too many issues and
if I continue to do this in the new year, I will get
sick. For the limo ride, I don't have to know where
I am going and control this, just trust the universe
to take me where I need to go. (where I want to go,
that is a different story). As for justice and fair
play, financial gain does not justify the denial of
my core values of what is justice and fair play. I need
to stay true to my core values as I am making decisions
and let the universe
provide. As for the other Sonja, I am unique and I am
not, just a paradox. Some things the same and some things
not. I was angry during the first years of knowing her,
why did she have the same name as me. But later it became
more acceptance. Even later, it would be embracing her.
I really don't know what happened to her. No reply is
needed to these dreams, I really didn't know if to place
this here in the practice readings or in the walk your
talk. Any insights will be gladly accepted and pondered.
WhiteElkDreamer:
Dearest
White Buffalo Woman, oh Woman of Wisdom--Sonja! To me,
'The Awake-Time and Dream-Time' both contain wonderful
'symbols' and 'signs' and 'such' that 'mirror' our present
location in the Great Medicine Walk, or in the Lakota
concept, 'The Good Red Road.' As you stated, no "replies
are necessary," however, I wonder if you might
want to consider some different 'insights' to your 'interpretations'
of the 'symbolism' of the 'dreams.' Simply said, they
are 'positive,' but, where you see a 'positive reflection,'
I saw some 'negative (not to be seen as bad, just an
opposite spin of the pattern, and in this case, one
that is 'at odds' with your 'new Year of You!'), and
where you may have seen 'negative,' I got the 'impression'
of something far more 'Life Affirming!' I am sure that
you know the 'root meaning' of your 'Name--Sonja: Wisdom!'
And, with that said, it is 'interesting' that in the
'court or arena of Life--game of Life (which is a process),'
that we see, or discover to 'our surprise--yours and
your readers,' your 'alter ego, or Mirror Self' as not
only being 'Alive,' but a 'welcome site,' now that you
have grown to accept that it is okay to be 'Unique!'
You see, I think, 'metaphorically speaking,' that the
'Sonja' on the opposite side of your life--polarity,
such as masculine and feminine: receptive vs. expressive,
is now not only alive to you, but, your 'fears of dying
by means of not being able to nurture the world (self-expression
through nurturing)--of breast cancer,' were 'un-substantiated!'
And, now, the 'other Sonja,' that part of you, that
perhaps, you thought 'stole your uniqueness,' and I
am going to 'venture a guess and intuition,' that the
'physical mirror--the Other Sonja,' may have been more
of what you desired to be in the 'active/masculine/expressive
You,' was 'still very much alive,' and now that you
knew that she had not 'succumbed to the cancer of nurturing
breast' you wave in 'acceptance and acknowledgement'
that she is still 'very much alive!'
You see 'Dearest One,' to
me, the 'Class Reunion,' may be speaking of the 'Great
Mystery' of the 'Hieros Gamos' within us, of 'marrying--balancing
and uniting the Sacred Feminine and Sacred Masculine,'
within our 'Beingness and Soul Expression!' So, you
see, you can still be the one and only, and 'Unique
Sonja' by 'being yourself!' Oh, by the way, to 'tie
this together' in Lakota cosmology and the 'Mystical
Kabbalah' of the 'Jews and Christians,' in the Lakota
Cosmology of the 'Good Red Road,' the 'Heart' is the
'South or the beginning of the Good Red Road,' while
the 'North is the culmination' of the Good Red Road'
in the Consciousness of the Heart's Wisdom: A Marriage
of Wisdom (Heart) and Understanding (Mind/Consciousness).
Now, if you look real close (for all of those that have
come into contact with the Kabbalah--and it is a 'Medicine
Wheel' just like the one most of us use in our Medicine
Paths), from the 'Crown (of Creation--The Zero or Center
of the Medicine Wheel)' comes the top most 'sephirot--energy
centers,' which are the 'masculine Chochmah--Wisdom,
and the 'ferminine Binah--Understanding.' So, actually
'True Wisdom and True Understanding' require both to
be in balance and harmony. So, you say, there were 'two
Sonjas in your dream?' One on 'each side of the arena?'
And both were 'alive and well,' and 'happy to see each
other?' Happy 'New
Year of Sonja(s)!'
Now, to the 'meats, flesh,
and carnivores' of 'animal expression.' Yes, I guess
you could see this as 'being Negative,' however, and
you may have been saying this in your 'summary,' but,
I see something 'completely different,' and perhaps,
it speaks of your 'confidence and faith' in following
your 'Heart--Desire.' You see, your words tipped me
off to the fact, that this was a 'conscious intent'
to 'eat only meat,' which 'symbolically' represents
the 'living flesh' of some 'anima (where we get the
term animal)' which in the 'Latin,' and of course in
'Native American Wisdom' represents 'The Truth or Beingness
or Nature' of some 'essence or anima--animal!' So, it
seems, that you are at a point, 'New Year?,' in which
you now 'desire to be fed and nourished' by many different
'Meats: spirit essences or Wisdoms.' This could mean,
opening up to the 'teachings of many individual animal
and guide essences, and could include, as well, different
philosophy and belief systems!' You have been 'told,'
or 'sub-consciously,' you hold on to notions that only
'one way is right,' or to 'mix and match' the 'collective
meats--wisdoms, beliefs and tenets,' of multiple 'belief
systems' will make you 'crazy or sick!' And, so, your
'perception' is 'correct!' You are a 'glutton' in the
'eyes of those that do not wish to see?' To me, and,
I always forget who said it, Plato or Socrates, but,
"...to live a life without self-examination, is
to not live (paraphrasing very apparent)..," and,
so, to me, this part of your 'dream time,' continues
from the 'Field of Life,' and 're-connecting with Sonja,'
in that you now have 'decided to taste the meats of
many,' so that you can 'Nourish the Soul Journey' within
you. You see, the negative energies, were not 'from
within you,' but came from without you. And, it does
speak to the next part of the 'dream' where perhaps
you might be trying, again, to 'worry too much about
what other's think! Getting down to the 'real Wild and
Natural us,' you see, those around you, aren't where
you are: Hungry! So, they can't possibly see how you
would 'finish all that is on your plate.' Because they
are 'quite comfortable' where they are in life. Ooops...Happy
New Year...will return in a couple of hours...it is
1029 Central Time, US, and I need to go pick up my nephew...would
like to finish the rest of your dream(s), if you don't
mind.... Heeees Backkkkkk.
Sonja, I must admit that the
last part of your 'first dream' somewhat 'confused me.'
In that the 'symbols clashed.' But, and please if the
'shoe doesn't fit, don't wear it,' I got the sense that
some 'lofty pretentions' and 'phony airs' were at work
in this 'dream,’ or at least, were ‘being
brought to the surface.’ Now, I don’t get
the ‘sense’ that it is you personally, but
perhaps, your ‘husband’ and this ‘fad
mobile.’ And, to me, they ’represent, the
‘other side’ of your life, and, don’t
ask me why (I would assume by ‘DreamMaker’s’
use of the ‘reunion metaphor’ that this is
in ‘hindsight’), but, I sense that even though
this part of the dream could be ‘fears of pending
or future events or changes,’ that it speaks of
the past. That you now see that living a life, whether
it be with ‘spiritual elitism (ego out of check),’
or not, that our living vehicle—career, life path
and choices, living style, and such, should not be ‘blind’
to the outside world (closed/blocked windows), and certainly
not with disregard or ‘insensitivities’ to
the ‘welfare of others around us—in our world
of everyday events.’ In other words, have your
‘fears’ been realized, at this ‘reunion
point—time of reflection and change in your life
(remember this is a ‘RE Union,’),’ that
you have been ‘walking a path’ that was both
‘uncomfortable to you (see dream),’ and you
now see, has caused ‘damage?’ And, in addition,
you feel like you were ‘dead—coffin reference,’
meaning your ‘real heart and soul,’ were not
‘into this path.’ And, if this is a ‘current
situation—pending path change, life or career,’
are you afraid that you will be trapped and then that
it may not work as you would like (because you can’t
see outside of the ‘vehicle,’ and you fear
the ‘repercussions’ as you suspect this is
not a the way you would like to ‘drive your life’
without clear view and with such a disregard for other
things in your ‘life’s path?’
Now, before you get ‘upset
with me,’ I don’t read you as this type of
person. But, if it is a ‘Hindsight dream,’
I see this as a ‘dream’ that is finally showing
you that you ‘need to be in control of the Wheel
of Life—your Vehicle,’ and not leave the ‘driving
to other’ possibly vain and superficial philosophy
systems or trends. And, again, not to ‘wear out
the saying,’ but, in other words, have you not
been ‘living and acting the Real You?’ Again,
this ‘dream’ seems ‘to be about the ‘two
Sonjas’ so I suspect that it, the last part of
the first dream, may be confirmation that you have not
only felt trapped in your life to this point, but, that
you were not ‘in control’ and closed off from
seeing things in your path, and now, you realize that
it is indeed not the path or way that you wish to live
and walk. By the way, if you are already aware of the
symbolic use of ‘Husband’ such as the ‘Bible’
makes use of, please forgive me, ‘husbandry’
represent the ‘active belief systems and principles
that we use to actively use to live our lives and grow
and be fruitful and multiply—harvest of our crops
and fruits and cattle.’ .’ However, the first
dream is all about a ‘State of the Union Address:
the Two Sonjas’ coming together ‘in order
to form a more perfect union, establish justice, insure
domestic tranquility, provide for the common defense,
promote the general welfare, and secure the blessings
of liberty to ourselves and our posterity, do ordain
and establish this Constitution of the New Union of
Sonja’s States!’ By the way, they let me out
at night to post opinions in ‘spirit forums,’
I think they call it ‘certifiable.’
Now, to the second, most recent
‘dream.’ Well, to me, this actually is a ‘continuance’
of what I see as you questioning the ‘status quo’
of some ‘belief system or such.’ I may be
totally ‘off-base’ here, but, to me, there
is a lot of ‘get spiritual quick schemes’
going on, that are just the ‘spiritual versions
of Religious Hoity Toity-ness, and such.’ And you
are ‘right,’ the ‘Treasure does belong
to all—if we shall seek. And there is a ‘tendency
in man to ‘value themselves’ greater than
others and to create ‘arbitrary value systems (usually
that tend to esteem those qualities that are seen by
the evaluators in themselves, regardless of whether
this is true or not),’ in an effort to ‘feel
good about themselves.’ Well, I could ‘dissect’
the ‘Seven People’ which seems to ‘point
to’ the ‘perfecting number,’ and suggest
that even though this dream speaks of the ‘hypocrisy’
in the ‘industry—the spiritual community,’
it does have some ‘truth’ to it that the ‘rules
do change’ as we ‘seek the underlying laws
of spirit and the universe:’ meaning, that our
‘belief systems’ do go through a ‘metamorphosis’
as we grow in our ‘soul experience and development.’
What was once thought of as being ‘right’
now suddenly falls away as we seek the ‘workings
of nature and the universe’ through ‘more
enlightened eyes.’ Okay Sister, I hope I did not
‘over-analyze’ the dreams, but, the bottom
line is that, that both seem to suggest a ‘major
intersection’ in your ‘spiritual life,’
and that not only are you in the processing of becoming
‘whole,’ but, you are ‘re-evaluating’
the ‘belief systems and cultures’ that you
have grown within.’ Does any of this resonate?
WhiteBuffaloWoman:
Thank
you Elk dreamer Any Insights are welcomed. You are offering
me insights that I had not considered but make a lot
of sense. I have been blessed with very vivid dreams
that are staying in my mind as I wake. Thanks so much
for the offering.
