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The Solar Crone
By Cinnamon Moon
The Solar Crone took me for a stroll,
she grabbed my arm and said, "Come, walk with me, talk
with me, I'll show you the way."
and then she smiled
a knowing smile and I know I saw a twinkle in her eye.
Part of my lessons with solar feminine
energy this year have had me struggling for the past three months
over an issue with ethics. I did well at first but then hit
some snags along the way and the flow of the energy began to
churn a bit. So I've been doing a lot of thinking about the
injection of the solar feminine influences and how I'm relating
and reflecting them to the world.
I needed to know how this energy
was affecting the way I walk my path and its impact on others.
I wanted to know what it felt like to receive this energy from
me in whatever form it was presented
what did my touch
feel like? So I went looking for the Feather's Touch, the gentleness,
unobtrusiveness, soft invitation
I wanted the warm caressing
sense of light to project on people
and I was so worried
it might be harsh, a blast of the solar masculine side in my
nature that might be taking over instead.
To avoid that meant a tempering it
with more understanding was called for. The solar feminine was
'different' and I knew that, understood it was the feminine
active principle but it was different and I needed to define
that more so I could balance the two, know the essences of which
was which, the definition would help hone my touch.
I began noticing that my personal
growth was starting to spill out of me, it was taking form,
the time had come to bring it into the physical work I do and
I had to make sure it was done right. One aspect I can use as
an example is the reception and expansion of messages I receive
for others through guidance. That's shifted a great deal over
the past 7 years as I've grown in new directions and I knew
that wouldn't happen without a need.
Our abilities expand with us when
they are the tools we're going to be needing in the future,
they need to grow to meet that need too, this is basic cosmic
law. It wasn't hard to see 'what' was happening here, but understanding
why and how became my experience, my lesson, my on the job training.
Well this spillage was telling me the need is here now, my pathwork
itself (in the physical sense of daily life) is shifting in
I'm now receiving messages that
I'm instructed to 'deliver' when they have not been asked for
by the recipient. While I've always channeled insights and done
readings for clients I was stubbing my toe badly on this one,
clients asked for this, and the new path wasn't one of 'clients'
it was one of people who didn't know what they were looking
for. This new level of insight is 'on' all the time, I can't
stop and start it and I'm not supposed to. I know I need to
let it flow but the flow is what had me concerned. Would it
be too much, too little, or just right? I knew on Spirit's end
it was right, it was my end that concerned me.
This expansion of my pathwork has
taken me from the individual seeking my help to offering that
help when it isn't necessarily being asked for in all cases.
(I'm going to do counseling work with
terminally ill children and their parents). I began asking myself
how could I achieve their attention and willing acceptance of
what I needed to say to them? Clearly these were messages to
be delivered for new purposes, and suddenly all the old ethical
rules I had guided myself by didn't quite apply. The acceptance
of that must come from their parents
parents that may know
nothing of alternative counseling or shamanic methods or Spirit
it's not quite mainstream there yet and
here I find myself spilling the stuff suddenly and in areas
that didn't apply directly to my pathwork. It was just happening
in what seemed a random manner. Whoa, Cinnamon, stop that! It
needed the solar feminine touch balanced with the solar masculine
touch, it was calling for the combination, the axis of the two.
For analogy I saw this in the feminine spiritual essence and
the masculine ministerial essence
the Solar Crone squeezed
my arm and smiled.
The solar feminine is different
energy than most people are used to working with spiritually.
Most of us turn to the feminine and the reflective side of that
nature in our pathwork, but this is the active principle and
the way to it, for me, was through the logic of the solar masculine
approach and the solar feminine combined
.the unified Medicine
has been present throughout all my lessons over the past several
years and this one is no different. The feminine role no longer
strictly passive/receptive, becomes balanced with assertive
it takes action to manifest form and balance was
key to the action so I had to combine the feminine and masculine
teachings to get my head wrapped around this one.
My first click came when guidance
showed me that I'd walked my earlier path of learning through
both Men's and Women's Medicine Teachings. Okay, and then the
unification process of my own Medicine that's been undertaken
for the better part of a decade now. This came into play and
I started to see the pattern of emerging I was passing through
laying itself out.
I'm finding the essence of Grandmother
Crone's energy signature is all around that 'ethical search'
matronly permission that comes when one is old enough and experienced
enough to share thoughts or opinions with others because you're
you've earned your permission walking through
life and experience. You're all familiar with the old woman
that speaks her mind regardless of what you may think as she
walks past you in the store aisle
"You should really
lengthen that hem on your skirt, dear child" as she continues
on her way. She drops her feather and lets you decide if you
want to pick it up or not, but she drops it none-the-less
or critical, she's going to have her say. This is seen as eccentric
by some, charmingly amusing by others, an eye-opener for some,
or useless by those who don't have their ears open to the passage
of the wisdom or message
an old woman's opinion that 'doesn't
matter' in the first place
she's going to have her say
and she's probably dressed in purple or has a blue tint to her
white hair. She does as she pleases knowing what pleases her,
going with her nature and melding into life in her own way with
a touch to share helpful insights with whomever she sees to
I knew I needed to reflect on the
Crone but where? I knew something was being mirrored to me in
that reflection but couldn't see just what it was. I saw my
own reflection in the mirror and I was trying to look into that
seeing how I'd changed. Then I clicked
is opposite of lunar
flip the mirror
look out from
it, not into it. See the reflection of the environment from
the other side of that mirror
see where that reflection
was shining light or shadow or darkness into
see what I was touching and how and where
that path was taking me.
To understand the solar feminine
I had to reflect on the different aspects of the lunar feminine
and the stages
the trinity of Maiden, Mother and Crone
step to into the reflection and project them outwardly. I wasn't
looking at a spiritual landscape here though, I was looking
at my own environment and what was currently happening in it.
Well I wasn't sure where that reflection was shining so I waited
and then suddenly realized that I was starting to spill this
energy around those who were close enough to be exposed to that
in my personal relationships with four friends,
all Sisters who walk honorably along their spiritual paths.
That spillage stood out to me as
I reminded them of some basic concepts of spirituality, things
I knew they knew already but were forgetting or overlooking
as they assimilated the changes in their lives. I wasn't aware
I was doing it until it happened to stop me in my tracks that
I might be coming off as haughty, diminishing the honor and
respect I truly felt for them, and likely being quite insulting.
Whoa! Put on the breaks, Cinn! You can't spill like that, it's
not right, you need balance here. I chastised myself big time
and on the spot.
I know there's balance in the Crone,
she's been through the different phases of life, she knows what
they're about and she's learned her lessons. I've walked with
Crone energy for a good while now, I'm used to that and began
to analyze it. Using the Crone's energy to deliver wisdom is
done with grandmotherly love. She certainly carries a strong
aspect of the solar feminine energy doesn't she? Strong from
the years of reaching for that strength, the gentle touch it
brought as those strong loving hands did their work. Strong,
active when she sees something that needs doing
strict virtues, proper behavior and ethics,
she's certainly not afraid to address it when it's lacking
there to ask 'where are your manners?' when someone's misbehaving,
or compliment you if she sees you being respectful.
She knows to ask if you looked here
or there where you're trying to find something
if it's in its proper place you should be able to find it--and
if it's not, then where you last used it is where you're most
apt to locate the missing item
she'll direct your search
but not search for you
and she'll insist that you do search
knowing that the experience itself is the lesson learned. It's
the same way she learned her patterns of looking and finding
answers, of growing and coming to see things. She knows that
next time you'll put the item back in its place when you've
finished with it, or you'll know how to find it.
To find what I was looking for I
needed the Crone
I needed to step out of the lunar and
into the solar through her wisdom. So in this Crone aspect I
began to reflect on how the solar feminine influences each stage
of the feminine trinity. The Crone knows that the child explores
the conceptualizing of the small world around them, learning
and discovering as much through osmosis as possible, watching,
observing, taking it in. The infant can't speak, they're learning
communication skills and forming concepts around that. The active
solar principle comes into play with speech that sets things
in motion by creating sound
formed utterances develop
into words that bring about reactions from wherever or to whomever
they are directed. The child then moves into the world communicating
needs from the cry that begins that communication to the speech
adolescence is the transition point of growth
to a young adult but the child often plays in an illusionary
world that dances between creation and reality in a limited
environment where it's safe
to do so. They learn to speak, what is accepted and what isn't
through communication and observation. I was needing to see
I was learning to speak these new messages.
During the adolescent phase the
active solar feminine explores wider stepping out of the care
of a parent and into the world to again find one's way in the
expanding environment around them
a rite of passage takes
place as we find our place in the world. It's here the illusions
are shattered, faith in self is established, trust in life is
learned through trial and error and through those who love us
and whom we love in return and those we meet as strangers as
we learn our discernments. We come to know the realities and
where dangers reside or trust is broken. In this way we learn
to balance and find our place in the world and those we surround
ourselves with. It's the same activity for male or female and
here I saw the balance in that growth
in going with the
flow. It shifts at this point though and I noted that too. I
was in one of those shifts.
Along the way this young adult woman
becomes the mother and explores the nature of family learning
the skills of nurturing, healing, relationship, guidance, protection
work that's involved in raising that family and the sacrifices
that go with it so one may attain the fruits of their efforts.
Willing sacrifice, not forced
the willingness stood out
to me. The masculine solar energy takes us to the hunting, gathering,
and protection of the family while the feminine solar energy
enters into the nurturing guidance
it's protective too,
but in a different way
gentler and here's where I saw the
wisdom of the Crone coming into play.
With the family grown and on their
own the woman comes to the Grandmother's role
into the early stages of the Crone and she comes to embrace
her wisdom of years well-earned, she speaks her mind.
And I'm right back, full circle, to the Crone who is holding
the Infant, one phase being passed to another, comforted and
safe, understood and trying to understand
balance of what
is unknown with what is known
the teachings of a lifetime
begin to be shared as a way of passing them on. She's found
her permission to speak, she's earned it, and she speaks with
what authority is in her voice though? It's
love, genuine caring, heartfelt, for the higher good of those
she shares for
the love of that grandchild. I had another
temper it with that and I was on track. Well I knew
that role well, I've been a grandmother for almost 2 decades
now, yep, I could handle that part just fine.
I was discussing some of this with
my four friends and one of them mentioned that the 'touch' of
the solar feminine was a softer touch than the solar masculine
with gentleness, stern if it needed to be but not initiated
that way. I snapped there
that was my issue, the feminine
solar energy vs. the masculine solar energy
I needed to
jiggle and see the feminine initiates with the gentle flow of
like a stream trickling down a hillside as spring
run-off begins with melting snow
a gentle flow not a surging
torrent of charging in and taking control that we find in the
masculine approach. The insights were showing up over and over
again creating little 'x marks the spots' everywhere.
We spoke of the balance that the
solar action within this feminine flow requires as one shifts
from receptive to projection energies. I was searching myself
for my point of balance
how could I, walking the Path of
the Feather, find the Feather's touch in this? I wanted to know
that my solar touch was a gentle one and that it didn't 'feel'
harsh to others. I had to find that in myself.
I went at it furiously, much like a grandmother rooting around
in the attic, I was looking for something to trigger that balance,
I knew it was there somewhere.
The awareness of a need to balance
with this solar feminine energy becomes the honing tool. I knew
what I wanted to project and needed to know if that's what was
coming across. That's why I checked myself and it's why I asked
for help in doing so with the insights that 4 women I trusted
held. We were all experiencing this in our own ways
into a new level of service in our pathwork and dealing with
changes that challenged us in our physical environments too
I was being given insights and messages that would need to be
I know that my pathwork requires
I point a finger and say "Step this way
the path to
Spirit is over there and if you keep going in that direction
you'll find what you're looking for. Just a touch here and there
and sharing what's needed when I'm directed to help someone
see their way out of confusion. Not dictating but sharing and
that's the gentle shift. Feeling what 'feels' right to us will
give focus to what's presented
if we're comfortable sharing
it then others will be comfortable receiving it. The balance
we're all finding a new level of permission
to using our abilities in a more assertive manner. Medicines
are emerging with us into the pathwork ahead and this is the
way it's serving us all
to discuss it and assimilate and
jiggle things. What works for one may not work for another but
it may be close to what we're reaching for here
to say 'yeah, sort of like that, I just need to jiggle it this
way while you need to jiggle that way
or our jiggles are
the same in this or that.' I'm hoping by sharing my jiggling
process some of you will find it helpful in your own ways too.
Anyway, then I went from the stages
of Woman to the stages of Mother Nature
seasons and how
they related to the solar feminine
spring's activity means
sprouting new buds and vegetation taking on new form
brings the energy to stretch ourselves and grow, autumn harvests
the rewards of our efforts, winter brings endings and plans
for new beginnings, sharing the experiences as we share our
seclusions and restful phase of putting our experiences up into
canned jars of wisdom. In the spring
where we are now
about rooting and sprouting and planting seeds to come up later
of us will pull up roots and sink them elsewhere as we transplant
ourselves, some of us are already seeded and sinking our roots
deeper into Mother Earth. At the same time we're stretching
toward the sun
toward the solar
connecting Earth and
balance between the two
union of the feminine
conception leading us to
the active growth and fruit this year's lessons will produce.
I was weaving through all my teachings
in the attic of my mind to find that
point of balance so I could move forward with this energy
in the flow. From the attic I could see a long way, the big
picture was firmly in place. It was the personal action that
took me into that landscape and the means by which I journeyed
through it that mattered now and I needed something else before
I stepped out more fully. Ahhhhhhh yes, Grandmother's needle
and thread! I had to connect the dots, these things clicking
into place were helping me take those stitches
was unfolding and there were new threads to connect things,
it was time to do some sewing.
I could see I needed to wrap my
mind around this now in a way that went from concept and insight
to experiencing it and weaving this energy myself
when the next season turns
where we grow over the summer
and come to our fullness to produce our fruits
know the way to jiggle things into place, discard illusions
and find my balancing point of truth. I need to gain from this
journey but I need to share that understanding to help others
grow fruit from their efforts too. We'll come to the assimilation
of those experiences as our fruits ripen, all this is the feminine
giving birth or bringing form into the world
from the internal
to the external
it is the active solar feminine principle
that is bringing the spiritual aspect into the physical form
I was spilling over with this
was spilling into the relationships I valued and it caught my
attention that called for me to take action because
I can't contain it within myself any longer. I'm giving birth
to the outward form of those enhanced abilities in the sense
that they need to be brought out into the world and it seems
this spring is the time for that taking place. My pathwork is
shifting and manifesting new directions along the way, the road
is turning for me and these abilities are needed. I was out
of balance because I was uncomfortable presenting the messages
without permission, it was a matter of ethics and I was really
struggling with that
in a masculine sort of way I felt
I had to attack the issue but the approach I tempered that with
was the lunar feminine
I asked quiet questions and opened
to quiet answers
asking Spirit, guidance, and my friends
to help me.
The clues began to plop themselves
around the table top making these little clicking noises as
they fell into place
I kept wanting to connect the dots
so started threading the needle. I needed to see the threads,
and in that I knew I'd see my connection to this new way of
presenting, but I knew too it had to be gentle
energy signature was all over that. Like the gentle light of
Grandmother Moon, the receiving washed through me
to be presented with the solar feminine though
I had to
find my balance point with that
feather's touch...like bathing a newborn.
Retrograde Mercury was one of those
what was I holding onto that I needed to release?
I found it
the old ethics of permission gave way to the
ethics of the Crone
the woman who walked with Spirit's
permission and decades of life experience to draw upon. Spirit
was sending a message to be delivered and there was instruction
to deliver it
not randomly but to specific individuals
who had not 'asked' for it. Okay, delicate balancing act there
to be sure, but I found the permission through Spirit and guidance
I clicked on my Guides and heard them laughing.
I don't know about your Guides and
Spirit Helpers but I do know about mine. They don't ask my permission
to tell me things any more than my Grandmother asked my permission
to tell me something. They speak or address me when they need
to. The role they play in my life was with their permission.
The ethics of that came with the role and their love for it
and for me
if the message helped it was to be
presented and the recipient would then take that advice or wisdom
and choose for themselves if they needed it to nourish them
it would be up to them if it had value
needed to deliver it for Spirit, and in that I had my answer
I had to do was say: "Excuse me, I have a message for you;
or have you considered __________?" All I had to do was
get their attention, deliver, and leave the rest up to them.
All I had to do was what I'd always been doing
Had those ethics really changed then?
No, not really, they were there all the time, just on a different
level. The Crone's ethics are well seeded, basic foundations
that many years of experience have honed. She knows instinctively,
intuitively, seeing through eyes the years of experience have
taught, seeing the fine details too, she knows, she knows
to Mercury retrograde
that thread shows I've been on hold
and struggling to figure out what I needed to release to allow
this shift in energy to flow from me with grace, with gentleness,
and with accuracy as I brought it out into the light of day.
I needed the ethical approach that was right for me and I was
really rooting around in my attic to find it, calling for help
where I could, and I got my 'duh' moment.
What I needed to release this retrograde
along spiritual lines are the old misconceptions that we can't
we can, we just have to find a comfortable
way to inject them...a gentle opening that can be quickly inserted
to set the intent of the message
connecting the dots, taking
weaving the Medicine
weaving the message
darning needle was getting busy here. It's actually an attention
the message will stay with the recipient then and
they can discern for themselves if it's useful or not.
I kept being reminded of my Guides
who don't need permission to address me. They tap on the shoulder,
rub up against my side, whisper in the ear, throw a vision at
me taking over my monitor screen, pop into dreams and make their
presence known doing what they need to do to relay their messageswhatever
it takes to get through even if it means that unseen 2 X 4.
They see where I'm focused and step into view when they need
to. They see where heading in a wrong direction or straying
and draw my attention in different directions so I can figure
out what's wrong. They take me to the different elements or
bring them into play
so that I can see
what perspectives to apply to whatever I'm working through or
being asked to do. It's really no different than that. And based
we have the choice to accept or reject their help.
I know I can refuse to listen, but
I know their messages haunt me then too. I have closed that
door and when I do I'm left to my own mechanisms and my own
consequences. I know they are there to help me and sometimes
I don't want that help but that's free will isn't it? And if
that choice is made and the door gets slammed shut I evidently
need to be alone at that point in time
.I'm not clicking.
I need an experience to show me something. They come back the
next time though and again and again they have proven to be
so patient with me when I get stubborn. I didn't want to be
stubborn here, I wanted to use that need I felt and let it teach
me so I opened more to what was happening and how it would fill
the need of those along the way. It's the same principle
Guides let it flow, what I do with the nourishment is up to
me. I wanted to work with this.
What I need to release is my old
precept of needing that permission because Spirit is the one
giving that directive and guidance is helping me hone the way
it works and therefore the permission to let it pass into the
world is there. Where it goes from there is not up to me to
attach to. Oh Cat Whiskers! I managed to connect a few of the
dots! Duh! I just need to let it flow, not spill. The light
touch of the feminine is the touch of graceful love, the caress
with a caress is all that is needed to present any insight.
Whisper-soft, non-intrusive, disarmingly offered, that's all
it takes. Force isn't a factor then. I really liked the way
this was coming together.
It was the touch of the Feather
was there all the time, same ethics as always, just shifting
on a new level
into the solar feminine, I'd found my center
with it. I know I'm going to be working with this energy for
a long time to come. The rhythm of the energy itself was starting
to flow now, not spill, and the flow felt right. One of my friends
helped me see while what we are saying feels "right"
it's the mode in which it has been delivered up until now that
has been loaded with the masculine energy so we're used to hearing
this sort of thing delivered with a punch
and in that light
it used to be needing permission as it was a force coming at
that protective force of masculine action...it
used to come with that masculine intention of "fixing"
the 'you do it this way'! The feminine solar is
perhaps: "have you considered
________ as a direction to follow?" Message delivered,
light shed, option open to free will
to the right ingredients and in that balance is restored. I
'got it'! In my friend's words: "The feminine Feather/Hand/Touch
is one of nurturing: this is the experience I've had...let me
share it with you so we may understand together." In her
words I could see that it's about sharing not insisting but
offering and letting the other person decide what they want
to do with it. Oh yes! The old ethics had new placement now.
Yay! I need to share this insight! So here I am sharing it now.
The new ethics are all about delivering the messages as loving
guidance to just look in some direction or consider another
perspective that I'd like to share with them if they didn't
it's very disarming and unobtrusive, it asks permission
in that way
the new ethics were no different than the old,
they were simply presented differently. If you don't have direct
permission balance it with asking for that permission. Oh I
had to laugh at myself there. Thanks Coyote!
I had my answer
and again her
words echoed in my ears: "We're sharing this information...not
preaching it. There's a BIG difference there. Sharing does require
some permission...there is a respect to sharing that isn't always
present in preaching." I saw that no matter what the situation
faced, the message could open with that intention no matter
what circumstances existed. I felt a surge of excitement flow
this is what I was looking for, what I had to
find in my attic
the words I needed to present the messages
ethically. All of a sudden I didn't feel like
I was spilling, I was refreshing the contents of the glass,
not overflowing it
it was basic, something I'd been overlooking,
the irony tickled me. Click.
I want to thank my friends for their
help, my Guides for bonking me over the head time after time,
and Spirit for blessing my path with the light to see where
I need to go. I'm really going to enjoy this solar feminine
energy now that I found my point of balance with it and I really
hope all of you are able to find yours. Spring is going to be
supercharged with a year of abundant growth this year
solar feminine is giving birth big time
I hope you're getting
settled into it, it is an exciting time ahead.
Remember that the visions we hold
are unfolding and manifesting the path ahead so work with your
guidance and happy manifestations to you all! I know that the
other aspects of my abilities that have grown over these past
several years are going to be coming forth to be used soon too
and with this solar lesson I can see the matrix, the pattern
of unification to bring them into balance. I wanted to share
that pattern in the hopes that it will be helpful to some of
you as explore and learn to grow with the solar feminine. I'm
And one more thing
of you who want to find deeper understanding of the feminine
lunar lessons to balance your solar feminine needs, there are
Moon articles in the library to help you. Thanks for walking
through this with me.
I'll speak to the Solar
I keep hearing from women who are
suddenly fed up to the limit with being taken for granted. With
spouses and children *assuming* that their wife or mother will
do the household, and then getting their undies in a bunch when
the woman implies that perhaps they're not doing very much in
the house pro-actively, and even creating more work for her
to clean up. The assumptions are coming forward, and women are
fed up with the stereotypical gender assumptions and divisions.
I'm speaking to women in the business
work force, who are realizing that they've pretended to be *men*
in order to get where they are - and now they want to integrate
the feminine strengths in their positions. Again, major undies
twisted about that one. I see women consciously using the skills
they have acquired as Mothers on their resumes (think things
like time-management), to profile their Role in a positive way,
something that can and will contribute to the health and well-being
of a company.
I'm noticing more mothers who are
becoming aware of the childcare and childrearing assumptions
laid onto them by their families, their environment and their
cultures. They're fed up with having the world revolve around
their children, and are starting to reclaim time for themselves.
They're fed up with the family's schedule being based on the
father's schedule, the school schedule (both masculine in nature)
- therefore not only being submissive to the partner, but also
to the general economy and patriarchal structures in our societies.
All in all, I see Woman standing
up, and saying "Hey, I am here too, and I am equally worthy.
My time is equally valuable, and my well-being is equally important.
I do not have to suppress myself, or oppress another in order
to take a stand and claim what is rightfully mine. I can give
what I give freely, without assumptions and hints and stereotyped
expectations." So I see women finding out where that unconscious
assumption is, where the stereotypification is hidden, and where
she is being undervalued by herself and her immediate environment.
I see articles in the news right
now that show how girls and women are given less opportunity,
consciously and unconsciously, in our masculine/patriarchal
systems - but I see mothers standing up and saying "No
Cinnamon, Thank you for
sharing so much and placing this energy into a context that
can be understood. Although at time changes are difficult its
an exciting wonderful time to be living and seeing the new energy
interweave in all aspects of life. The changes seem to permeate
and align every aspect of
the change through synchronicities.
Your articles about the Solar Crone
and the Pattern of Transition have helped me enormously. I love
this energy. Its decisive and yet gentle as it interweaves
within our lives and realigns our focus. Have fun!!
Mouse~I think you not only
addressed the Solar Mother but the Solar Maiden too...the feminist
movement was the Solar Maiden's journey into Motherhood and
the two sort of merged and now the Crone is saying "Here!
Here!" and applauding them. *Smile*
Earthwalker~I'm very pleased the
articles have helped you and you're right, it is a total permeation
into all aspects of society today, an exciting time indeed....and
I'm having a wonderful time in my own emerging process, I'm
enjoying it immensely! (Overall)
you so much for this article, Cinnamon. I like this idea, and
I like the gentle touch you have come to find in offering experience
and wisdom. Kind of nice, like, "I've grown this jewel.
Would you like to see it? Would you like to hear its song?"
Nice. Thank you.
Minna~ Thanks you old pixie
reread this article a few times and each time I got more out
of it. Im not at the Crone stage in my life. Its
nice to be shown the stepping stones to that place. Thanks,
Cinnamon, for your encouraging words of wisdom
Tarra, Ummmmm *Cinn looks over each shoulder* Pssssst....You're
coming into the early stages of this...you're becoming a grandmother.
While tradition may say that begins at 52 it starts before the
recognition by others. We have to ease into that. You're starting
on a really special path right now.
scream, kick, kick* Okay I'll throw in a receiving blanket and
admit I will be a grandmother soon .
I like the
way you explained that it is time for the intuitions we receive
to be given. It is hard to give out what used to be thought
of as interference. Then to let go of the outcome. I've had
one or two of these messages slip out and be taken in a bad
light. I still have to accept that it is their choice in how
it is accepted.
Part of their
path. I have to let it go in Love and Light, that's my path.
This has been one of my pet peeves. How could I ask the right
questions when I didn't know what they were? How was I supposed
to respect a tradition if I didn't know what it was? If I'm
not given information how can I make a knowledgeable descision?
It is still very hard to walk this path as those I see are watching
me to see if I do something they are looking for that I have
no clue. I'm a blank slate and they want me to write my own
story, but don't give me a any clue as to what they want to
Even as a
young child I would say things that adults would take offence
to because I was a child. That old saying "A child is to
be seen and not heard" was very prevalent as I was growing
up. Not that I got the message. I have always "spoke my
mind" and it still gets me into a lot of trouble
You won't be kicking and
screaming for long, pretty soon you'll be holding that baby
in your arms humming a lullaby! *Grins and giggles* Awwwwwww
it will be such a joyful time for you. (Pssssst receiving blankets
--the spare ones-- make good shawls too!)
It is hard to give out information
not requested, especially when there are 'rules' about it. But
those rules are changing for some of us now and we need to see
that to accept the change and jiggle things into place. As more
minds open to the spiritual perspectives I believe it's going
to be more acceptable. In the meantime the Solar Crone's authority
will guide us through that process. The old taboos were in place
keeping the ways for us until now...now it's time to bring things
out from the shadows and into the light. Feels good too! I like
to use the analogy of mail delivery. We're not responsible for
the content of the letter, we're responsible in delivering the
message. You don't shoot the messenger and the person receiving
the letter chooses what they will do with it. Message delivered...next.
And off we go.
How could I ask the right questions
when I didn't know what they were?
The 'right' question is the one that
is presented with right intent. Nothing more. You know when
someone is being genuine with you...or when you're genuinely
needing to know something. The person being addressed will recognize
that and share freely.
How was I supposed to respect
a tradition if I didn't know what it was?
Sometimes we're not to follow an
old tradition directly, just use it for guidelines and getting
our bearings. Everyone has to jiggle things so they fit. We
all wear a different sized coat and we can fashion them ourselves
or get one of traditional design, but a coat is a coat after
all. It's right intent that defines things, the integrity and
ethical approach we take to the path we are walking. Spirituality
is not between you and others, though it spills into relationships,
the primary focus is between you, Spirit, and guidance and when
you open to that you are never led astray. Spirit will see your
path is guided and that you're taken to just where you need
to be each step of the way. So trusting in the process itself
shows you where to go. As you explore and find different traditions
you have the inner knowing of what's right for you and that's
what you need to go by. Isn't that just what you've done? *Soft
If I'm not given information
how can I make a knowledgeable decision? It is still very hard
to walk this path as those I see are watching me to see if I
do something they are looking for that I have no clue. I'm a
blank slate and they want me to write my own story, but don't
give me any clue as to what they want to read.
Being yourself is enough. The expectations
of others are their issues. If you are looking for tribal acceptance
it will matter. If you are looking for a physical teacher it
will matter. Yes, they're
going to want to see if you are for
real or not, if you walk with right intent...but then you do
that. You're showing them what they need to see just being who
you are. It's not one right way of acting, it's acting with
respect period. It's not one right question, it's questioning
with sincerity. See?
Even as a young child I would
say things that adults would take offence to because I was a
child. That old saying "A child is to be seen and not heard"
was very prevelent as I was growning up. Not that I got the
message. I have always "spoke my mind" and it still
gets me into a lot of trouble.
Oh I know that one! LOL But luckily
you're at the age now where you have the authority to speak
your mind. Solar Crone is there for you if you need her. *Winks*
You're finding your own authority, your own permission, you're
just speaking truth...do so gently with love and you'll be fine.
Tough love when it's needed too. Grandma did have hands like
a board when she needed to use them that way.
blanket dancing shawls should be fun. Your right, Thanks for
being there to help me see myself.
your Soft Eyes post brought me back here to Solar Crone. Thanks!
Yesterday I found myself in a discussion with a church member
that had me commiserating on the joys and anguish of the path
to becoming the Solar Crone. It came to me how the physical
changes of post-menopause in particular brings about this shift
of voice, of vision...everything changes!
came to me most is how our center...that place of balance within
us physically...changes. We all come to this shift of balance
in different ways and different times. And the physical may
not be that of menopause, but that of generation...becoming
a granny, for instance. But, for me, being the hard-headed,
stubborn, mud-foot that I am, it's taken a whole heap of changes
in my physical world for me to get the message. Well, I'm still
working on what the message means for me...but I know it's there.
I spoke in the Soft Eyes post that my eyes are a bit cloudy
at the moment.
a hard time putting this into words, so please bear with me.
Becoming the Solar Crone, for me, is a time of integration of
the physical with the spiritual. Funny that I had to lose the
vitality of the physical to come to this point, but then, maybe
it isn't so strange. I spent much of my life living in two different
worlds. The physical was so real, present and immediate. The
spiritual was vital and I felt it's presence ever since I can
remember...could dwell in it when I felt the need, but it was
a different "place" within me and I only visited it.
I didn't live there. I'd always felt I was two separate people.
The spiritual one was seldom revealed to anyone. Maybe little
bits and pieces to my spouse at the time, or my children...it
would often show up while writing or reading to others, too...
but then they and others would look at me like I was a stranger.
And they were quite right. I didn't even know that spiritual
me very well.
in the last few years while passing through the physical change
of menopause there was a shift. I felt it, heard it, like a
loud CLUNK! Three years ago I think it was, shortly after I
moved here to this little cave of an apartment. It was the shift
of that spiritual merging into the physical....finally out of
the "reserved" area. I even found myself telling a
friend that I wanted to live a completely spiritual life! How
strange! I realized when I said it that it was true. But what
did that mean? And why was I saying it now? What changed?
me, that shift came with the physical shift to Crone. Since
then I've been struggling to find balance in voice, vision and
this physical body of mine. Struggling to find that center again.
How the spiritual works through the physical...the manifesting.
Vision and Voice seemed easier to understand than this body
of mine. My very cells have shifted...no wonder there are days
I feel dizzy with the change. And, of course, there are those
little bits that bug the daylights out of me...dry, flakey,
skin that sags in places I don't want to see sags, achey bones
and joints, muscles that somehow disintegrated while I wasn't
looking, hair that disappears in some places and shows up in
places I don't want it to...all those little physical changes
that I have to seek acceptance of. My old ways of manifestation,
which I sooo took for granted, just can't happen anymore in
the same manner. I don't face my day with the same type of physical
energy which I did before. How am I going to manifest that spiritual
life I so long for? All my tools have changed!
Crone. I'm still jiggling all these changes into place (and
sometimes not doing a very good job of it), but the soft, but
firm, energy of Solar Crone brings a focus that feels sooo right.
I haven't totally located that center in the physical...still
kind of scrabbling around, poking in places... but it lies within
a focus I've had all my life...perhaps in many lives. But boy!
Do I notice the change in those around me in the reaction to
when she shows up! Blank stares. Anger. Dismissal as an old
busybody. Pity, because it's obvious I just can't handle things
anymore. Or just plain, out and out, crazy old lady! *shrugs*
It's so funny, because it doesn't matter to me what their reactions
are! I feel like I have a special secret with Spirit on how
to deliver Solar Crone's messages. Heehee! Just the soft touch,
the drop of the feather, and move on. The response is not mine
to deal with! That's the biiiiig difference, you see.
of my younger years was dealing with the responses of others!
I needed a different type of energy then....a very physical
one which could deal with an alcoholic spouse, a job, two children
who had to be cared for and transported here and there. All
that dish juggling! I don't have that energy anymore and WHOOOPEEE!
I don't even want it! The Solar Crone offers the perfect energy
for the spiritual life I know I'm to lead!
blessing that CLUNK! was!! I still don't like the bitty stuff
of sags, bags, aches and wimpy muscles. But I see that shifting...sloooowly.
to my discussion with the church member. We've touched together
on this change to Solar Crone before. I didn't mention the Solar
part to her, but she understands the Crone part. We were sharing
together and laughing our butts off occasionally at the joy
of recognition in the sharing. Pastor walked in with a peculiar
look on his face. This church member, you see, is the one who
just over a year ago lost her husband. Pastor had often mentioned
to me how concerned he was about her period of grief and he
wasn't sure she was handling it well. He looked at the two of
us snorting and giggling, leaned on the doorframe with a peculiar
smile twitching his face, and said, "Well, seems to me
there is far too much levity going on here!" The two of
us broke out giggling again in a conspiratorial link of Crone-ness.
"If he only knew!" she whispered to me amid the giggles.
left I could see Pastor expected me to share what had gone on
between the two of us, but I just smiled and asked him a question
regarding Sunday's service. He looked disconcerted and a bit
out of joint, but I didn't care. It wasn't his to know. And
that's his lesson to learn about becoming a Sage, isn't it?
He doesn't have to have control of everything and solve everyone
like the Solar Crone! She's a dilly!
When I first read
the title Solar Crone....I thought...no, this isn't for me....for
I didn't take the time to read and understand.....The shamanic
way is new to me.......Sitting here tonight reading...not understanding
all but enough for me at this time....I realize this is a period
of time that I too am treading......leaving the young me but
not ready to accept the older me....the grandmother....the age
of 52, the sags the bags the wrinkles .......
You know...I haven't a clue
where I want to go
who I ought to be...in fact who I really
am....My children are grown...my youngest being nearly 14....I
have no partner, nor have I for the past 14 years....I have
spent my time bringing up my family and working to make ends
meet for us all...I haven't a clue where I go from here.....my
life is nearly my own again, and I haven't a clue where I fit....I
am used to being needed and wanted......now....it is nearly
time....to step forward into my time....and....I haven't a clue
where my journey will take me....
I have a feeling....I shall
be reading many more posts about the crone......Cinnamon...thank
you for opening my eyes a little today....
Awwwwwww thank you both
for your comments and sharing. I like the Solar Crone a lot
too SwanFeather, in fact, I'm loving her! She's such a joy.
And I think you're right about Pastor too, it wasn't his to
know, becoming the Sage is his experience. Reminds me of the
old warrior...he picks his battles, remembers his scars, and
is wise about it...it all comes from experience Pastor is having
his experiences. I often look back on my life, see times when
I 'allowed' things to go on that never should have but was too
blind to see I had options. Roads I'd never go down again but
lessons I cherish all the same. They gave me experiences I can
share with others when need arises and the ability in that sharing
to maybe help them avoid the process through insight. It doesn't
always happen that way, but it's there all the same. Lady Phoenix,
I am not going to attempt to tell you where you'll go in the
years ahead, but I will tell you that life starts over after
the nest empties and you adjust to it. There's a surge of energy
to move you into new phases, a second youth for a time, and
then it levels out. Things fall into place and life is good
on the Otherside too.
Whether you can see that now or soon
or as it happens, it will be a good phase of life for you. You'll
have the space for yourself you need, and the nurturing you
gave to children will be turned toward self-growth for a time,
then out into the world. It's all good. There will be room then
for the spiritual side of yourself to really surface and you'll
find the path ahead unfolds just right
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